I have disappeared from the blog world because a) I'm lazy, and b) my job requires me to move around and so I haven't bothered to get internet besides what's on my phone.
Anyway, I have been doing a little bit of thinking about my theology (which might be a bit clearer if I actually studied it). Maybe I have been claiming an atonement theology because I have been taught in the language of it.
I thought I might try to reclaim that theology which I love by coming up with a working definition of what it means to me. So here goes:
"People who are/aren't like I once was coming to know Christ (hopefully but not necessarily faith in Christ) through who I now am in Him because of my inclusion in his death and resurrection."
Perhaps to simple, perhaps too wordy, but a platform to work from none the less.
"This is the way, walk in it."
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Are you alright?
Several times in the past week I have been asked if I am alright. I don't feel any different than usual but people were pressing me to get me to tell the truth. Maybe there's something they can see that I can't yet.
I guess it's like that with lots of things. Yesterday, the first day of 2011, a dear friend told me that my compliments made his girlfriend very uncomfortable. I do try to limit my time with single girls because they don't have boyfriends that can pull me up on things like that. But it hurt to be told that what I say to everyone makes at least this friend feel uncomfortable.
So yesterday I was grumpy and brooding. "Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses." (Prov 27:6) I want to say that it's just one person, but maybe it's just one person who everything has lined up so that I can know how they feel. I want to cry, but I can't at the moment. I wanted to never say anything to anyone anymore. I wanted to be angry with God that the person he made me to this point makes people uncomfortable. How can I change who I am?
But that is the challenge of sin isn't it? I am sinful, therefore I sin. My sinfulness was evident in how quick I was to blame my holy, faithful and loving God for my problems. Being a Christian is about changing who you are, and being willing to give up your own life to love God and others. The rebuke hurt because I am not willing to change.
Maybe that's what is wrong with me lately. I have changed because I'm not willing to change. My eyes are dry, my faith is old, my heart is hard and my prayers are cold. Even at the New Year I had no resolution for change. I had no heart of repentance for the year that was. I had need for this wound.
Thankfully today I got "The Pursuit of Holiness" by Jerry Bridges. A day or too late to make resolutions with everyone else. But this year I make it my aim to pursue holiness.
Hopefully I won't make anyone's skin crawl along the way.
I guess it's like that with lots of things. Yesterday, the first day of 2011, a dear friend told me that my compliments made his girlfriend very uncomfortable. I do try to limit my time with single girls because they don't have boyfriends that can pull me up on things like that. But it hurt to be told that what I say to everyone makes at least this friend feel uncomfortable.
So yesterday I was grumpy and brooding. "Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses." (Prov 27:6) I want to say that it's just one person, but maybe it's just one person who everything has lined up so that I can know how they feel. I want to cry, but I can't at the moment. I wanted to never say anything to anyone anymore. I wanted to be angry with God that the person he made me to this point makes people uncomfortable. How can I change who I am?
But that is the challenge of sin isn't it? I am sinful, therefore I sin. My sinfulness was evident in how quick I was to blame my holy, faithful and loving God for my problems. Being a Christian is about changing who you are, and being willing to give up your own life to love God and others. The rebuke hurt because I am not willing to change.
Maybe that's what is wrong with me lately. I have changed because I'm not willing to change. My eyes are dry, my faith is old, my heart is hard and my prayers are cold. Even at the New Year I had no resolution for change. I had no heart of repentance for the year that was. I had need for this wound.
Thankfully today I got "The Pursuit of Holiness" by Jerry Bridges. A day or too late to make resolutions with everyone else. But this year I make it my aim to pursue holiness.
Hopefully I won't make anyone's skin crawl along the way.
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