Oh my! Oh my!

I enjoyed as much serenity of mind, and clearness of thought, as perhaps I ever did in my life; and I think my mind never penetrated with so much ease and freedom into divine things, as at this time; and I never felt so capable of demonstrating the truth of many important doctrine of the gospel as now. And as I saw clearly the truth of those great doctrine, which are justly styled the doctrine of grace; so I saw with no less clearness, that the essence of religion consisted in the soul's conformity to God, and acting above all selfish views, for his glory, longing to be for him, to live to him, and please and honour him in all things: and this from a clear view of his infinite excellency and worthiness in himself, to be loved, adored, worshiped, and served by all intelligent creatures. Thus I saw, that when a soul loves God with a supreme love, he therein acts like the blessed God himself, who most justly loves himself in that manner. So when God's interest and his are become one, and he longs that God should be glorified, and rejoices to think that he is unchangeably possessed of the highest glory and blessedness, herein also he acts in conformity to God. In like manner, when the soul is fully resigned to, and rests satisfied and contented with, the divine will, here it is also conformed to God.

I saw further, that as this divine temper, whereby the soul exalts God, and treads self in the dust, is wrought in the soul by God's discovering his own glorious perfections in the face of Jesus Christ to it, by the special influences of the Holy Spirit, so he cannot but have regard to it, as his own work; and as it is his image in the soul, he cannot but take delight in it. Then I saw again, that if God should slight and reject his own moral image, he must needs deny himself; which he cannot do. And thus I saw the stability and infallibility of this religion; and that those who are truly possessed of it, have the most complete and satisfying evidence of their being interested in all the benefits of Christ's redemption, having their hearts conformed to him; and that these, these only, are qualified for the employments and entertainments of God's kingdom of glory; as none but these have any relish for the business of heaven, which is to ascribe glory to God, and not to themselves; and that God (though I would speak it with great reverence of his name and perfection) cannot, without denying himself, finally cast such away.

The next thing I had then to do, was to inquire, whether this was my
religion..."

Plans

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD...

Seek the LORD while he may be found; call on him while he is near. Let the wicked forsake his way and the evil man his thoughts. Let him turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him, and to our God, for he will freely pardon.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

I desire more intentionality. I find it when I gaze into your beauty and majesty and justice and mercy. All these things I see in Jesus. I love him, but I don't spend enough time with him. Please don't let anything else capture my vision.

Faeces.

I present my Undergraduate Thesis in 13 hours. The entire ordeal of University has been God's way of saying "TRUST ME!".

I think I've been there 6 years because I'm still no closer to learning that one lesson...

*sigh*

Trembling to the cross...

My flesh and my sin
Turn tail at the thought of the Cross.
My Saviour and my King,
For my sake walked boldly to the Cross.

The wages of sin is death,
And I know it to be true,
But the gift of God is life,
And the resurrection and the life is You.



Please, Lord Jesus, let me be found in you because I know I won't go to the cross unless I am in you. I won't have life if I'm not in you. I won't have forgiveness and freedom unless I am you. There is no life outside of you. Please bring me in by your Spirit again. For your sake and glory do not let this heart remain dead and hard. Thank you for all that you have done on the Cross.

Amen.